Hello dear, it’s your faithpreacher-Anuoluwapo.
Thanks for dropping by! Am so glad to have you around.
Bet you’ve been good…today’s post is about my love story and how God has been faithful. Be blessed as you read, & please keep a glass of water beside you so you don’t choke as you read, laugh and learn from it.
“Is anything too hard for the Lord? I will return to you at the appointed time next year and Sarah will have a son…” Genesis 18:14
It was on a beautiful monday evening(18th of May, 2009), my day was quite busy so I took off into dream land around 6pm only to be awaken by a beep from my phone. A text message had just been sent to me…it was one of the greatest shock of my life,at first I thought I was having an “evening-mare” but it was obvious I wasn’t.
So, I quickly developed a weird assumption; “This must be the devil, I guess he just got a new phone and he is only looking for my trouble.”
God knew I didn’t want to believe what I had just read. I probably would have preferred losing a million dollar(that was then, don’t try me with a million now…I will sharply and joyfully receive it from you, because I’ve got great plans.wink) than believing the things written in the message
Oh okay…enough of the suspense!
Anuoluwapo, what was in the text message?
Here you go…
” I have been trying to love you, but I can’t…I have tried all I can, but I just can’t”
If you didn’t know who sent me this message, you just might say “Anuoluwapo, I didn’t know you were this pathetic…what’s the big deal about the message?”
Well, the big deal is that what you just read was sent by a lady I was tripping for, I mean I have been crushing over her since primary school(I wonder where I learnt this from…oh, I remember; the movies on tv). We had been friends since childhood and I had wanted to marry her way back in primary two(no wonder I wasn’t brilliant, I was busy thinking about marriage at age 5 instead of reading and paying attention in class).
We later went to separate secondary schools, graduated and were waiting for admission into the University.
Who would have thought that after six years of not seeing my crush, I did still keep crushing over her? But I was different, I guess I should have been a miner instead of studying to become a pharmacist…I could crush on a lady for six years and more(it’s not my fault, I guess I only took after Jacob who fortunately/unfortunately had his name changed to my middle name- Israel. How could he have worked 14 years just for a lady called Rachel? Please ask him when you see him in heaven, I don’t think I can answer that even though I know “love is patient” wink*), so after 6 years I continued on my “crushing adventure” and finally openned up to her, telling her just how I have been feeling about her. I guess that was the most courageous thing I did in all those years(except preaching the gospel to total strangers, you weren’t sure if they were going to beat you up or just laugh at you).
The young lady had her reservations, since she was going to travel abroad that same year(2009) and according to her, she didn’t want to start a relationship she couldn’t sustain. She neither said yes or no(brothers, this is a warning to you…stop assuming things!.wink*). But as the “crush master”, I took that as a yes
Assumptions can be disastrous my dear!
The text message came 5months after my “assumptuous yes” and I was heart broken…I mean, I could almost pick the pieces of my heart like a broken plate scattered around the kitchen floor. That was one sad week…I remember sitting on the floor, acting like I just missed the rapture. And for the first time in my life, I cried and fell sick over a lady(don’t tell anybody ooo, plus that was then…am a big boy now, and big boys don’t cry. Wink*).
On sunday evening(that same week), the Lord visited me after a short nap. I woke up with these words in my heart…
“I AM THE LORD OF RESTORATION & IN 4 YEARS’ TIME, I WILL RESTORE YOUR RELATIONSHIP”
I was thrilled but trust me, I wasn’t the patient type. Instead of waiting on Him, getting prepared and learning as much about healthy relationships…I did the exact opposite.
Sincerely, I guess I just didn’t think it was fair on God having Him go through all the stress of getting me a lady, plus since He has many important & urgent things to attend to(such as running the universe and answering the prayers of about 7 billion people on earth), He might likely forget about His word…so, I decided to help out. Obviously, I was very wrong about God on this matter!.
I spent the next 4 years hopping like a grasshopper from one relationship to another looking for someone to love and who in return, would love me back. You don’t want to know the details cause it wasn’t funny at all. Infact, it was a useless waste of time, resources, emotions, energy and money(I love giving, it’s engrafted in my DNA). The three(3) ladies I went after gave me a big capital letter NO! The funniest part was when I discovered that one of the ladies I went after was also being wooed by one of my pastor friend. I had to let go so I don’t get burnt by the fire of an anointed man of God(if you know what I mean).
“Delays are not set backs but set ups for perfect timing”
Bo Sanchez(God whisper)
Fast forward to 2013 and it was already 4years after. I was really expectant and excited but soon I became frustrated. After trying 2 more relationships(making a total of 5 in 4 years…shaking my head at me) within that same year, I knew I had to stop. I had to stop trying to help God fulfill His promises to me.
Like Adam, I knew I God had to sedate me and perform His operation on my ribs. He had to do the bringing while I did the receiving.
Today, I am 110% sure that God is a faithful God who is capable and more than able to bring His promises to past. I feel like the most luckiest being in the universe, not because I have a million dollar in my account(at the moment) but because God has brought that special being my path;
She is both gorgeous & godly,
hot & holy,
pretty & prayerful,
fine & faithful,
sweet & submissive…what more can I ask for?
When I look into her gorgeous eyes, I am reminded of God’s love and faithfulness, a Father who wants the very best for His sons(&daughters) and will go any length(including dying on the cross) to meet our every need.
Indeed, I have learnt to let go and let God,
to rest, stand still and know that He is God.
You too can do the same my dear because God’s got your greatest good at heart and He will never let you down!
“When the door of good closes, the door of better opens…when that closes too, rest because the best is just around the corner”
“In My love, I shut the doors that needed to be shut so that you might enter in through the right door. Hence, every “NO” was meant to move you closer to an eventual “YES”… the NOs that you got were to preserve and prevent you from entering the wrong doors; so you don’t miss out on the RIGHT DOOR.”
Says the Spirit of God
“So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For in just a very little while,
‘He who is coming will come and will not delay…’ ”
God is not against you my dear, He wants the very best for you…so, let Go and let GOD!
Ps. Oh…has she said “YES”? Hmm…not officially, but we both know(not assume) where this is leading to and by the way…I am not letting go of her. So kindly KEEP OFF!
Dedicated to a faithful God and His precious gift He sent my path. Bless your darling heart Oluwafunmilayo.